There are days I feel out of place because I am not where I need to be. I imagine where I should be, but sometimes the appearance is not there. Dysphoria for me is real.
My mental health is so much better than where it has been; my chest size is increasing. These are all positive notes. I have been somewhat quiet these last two months, mainly focused on Marylyn and her weight loss, and not wanting to deal with trolls online. đ ââď¸
At the same time, I was adjusting to new mental health meds, and things seem to be leveling out. I do suffer from imposter syndrome, but it is getting better. Yes, I know I am biologically "male," but everything else about me is a woman; it's who I am. I was born in the wrong body. đş
I am only 8 months into HRT, and I am so happy that using my platform has taught others more about trans people. I am here to uplift, educate, and live authentically. Regardless of what others say, I feel better about going out in public as my authentic self.
I have had multiple laser hair removal treatments on my face, and that has helped ease some of my dysphoria. I know there are people in my family and even Marylyn's family that have a hard time understanding.
Just know this: you do not need to understand what I am going through because you will not. Simply using my preferred pronouns and my name helps me. I am going to be opening up more and making more posts like this to share my journey. đ
Much Love, Maddi
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