Today, I want to talk about a term that's often used in the trans community: "egg cracking." This metaphor describes the moment when a trans person fully realizes and accepts their true gender identity. It's akin to a butterfly emerging from a cocoon, transforming from a caterpillar into its true, beautiful self. I think it's a fitting analogy for the profound change and transition we experience.
I've even created a piece of art inspired by this concept, which I'll share along with a picture of myself in this post.
When I first came out, I identified as gay. At that time, I didn't fully accept myself as a trans woman. Deep down, I knew I was in the wrong body, but I thought identifying as gay would be easier. Many trans people go through similar experiences, initially coming out as gay or bisexual before realizing their true gender identity.
Technically, you could say I'm gay now because I'm in a relationship with Marylyn and I'm a woman. However, we don't really label our sexuality. We often get questions about this, but what matters most is that I love her dearly and with all my heart.
This diary is a reflection for myself and a way to share my journey with others. My "egg cracking" moment truly happened in the summer of 2023. I decided to start hormone replacement therapy (HRT) in late July into August. It was a process, as I had to wait about a month for an appointment and undergo lab work to check on other health issues before starting HRT.
By November, we started sharing our lives on social media. I wore feminine clothes, but I didn't wear wigs or fully embrace my femininity then, so people often perceived us as a heterosexual couple. But in December and January, I began to embrace my femininity more, and my "egg" continued to crack. It's all part of the transition process.
Some people think I did this for attention because Marylyn was getting all of it on social media. But little do they realize that my journey started long before we went public.
It's important for people to understand that making assumptions about someone's journey isn't fair. You never know the whole story.
The more we share, the better people can understand. Thank you for following along on my journey.
Much Love,
Maddi ❤️
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